Sunday, December 12, 2010

Please Pray

One of my very best friends, whom I have grown close to ever since we realized our due dates for our babies were only days apart, past away last night.
Her son was in the Nicu while Lillian was there, she was such a comfort and we have grown close being single mommies together and going through our struggles together.
Her son is 10 months old. She was my closest friend when it came to mommyhood. She constantly lifted me up and told me what strength I had, and if I knew now that she needed strength, I would have given all I had to help her more. Her and her son spent every weekend that was possible, over here with Lillian and I. We talked about our struggles with having kids that werent completely healthy, and how paranoid we were, and our "baby daddy" problems, and what we admired in each other- and there isnt another person in the world I can talk to like I did with her.
I am absolutely devistated, selfishly for me, but not only that, her son, her parents and her entire family. Everyone loved her so much, she was soo silly and happy, always positive and encouraging.
I dont really have much else to say, other than please pray for the struggles her family will face, and for her son in particular.
*You were such a wonderful mom, and true best friend. Time is always against us, I wish so badly we had gotten more of it with each other. I am so glad I got to spend your last day on Earth with you. I will miss you so much, but I know now your pains and heartaches are gone and you have the strongest arms to hold you daily, Gods. I love you so much girl, Im so sorry our friendship this past month wasnt as close as we have been, but I know, and I hope you knew how much I care about you and babyboy. Oh my gosh, I cant express how much Im going to miss you. It just isnt fair. I promise to you to do everything I can to be here for your family and to my chunkers. Lillian and I love you so much, thank you for giving me happiness and encouragement. Love love love love love. *

I plan on posting pictures but not just yet, for privacy.

Monday, December 6, 2010

visit the winter issue to see our story- trying to spread the word!


Hi everyone!
I am soo happy today! Thank you God, because I was waiting for a dose of hope and happiness. Prayers have been answered! First, obviously, Thanks be to God. But secondly to my awesome friend Jeff, he makes a great partner for me and loves Lillian tremendously. I have a hard time excepting him into my life, for reasons of teetering with right and wrong and is this a good time, ect... but it doesnt change the fact, that he was there for her entire hospitalization this last time. Sleeping in rickedy beds with me, on recliners and being plan old stressed out in the crazy environment and still managing to go to work and come back, happy. THAT is amazing. :0)
Lillian has begun eating! Slowly, but better than ever! She has eaten Oatmeal this morning, 3 tablespoons of it(before mixed) to be exact, and a danimals yougurt  and 2 Tbs of fruit flavored rice cereal! She is 10 lbs.
She is 23 1/2 inches long. She has been doing great at holding foods down.
We got another God sent pediatrician- Dr. Ramsey. She put lillian on breathing treatments, for "asthma" as a precautionary, and... ITS WONDERFUL!!
We start OT and PT back up at home now, starting weds!! And we are also starting speech next week!
I am having a hard time juggling life in itself and trying to get to where I need to be... (my own feet) if anyone out in the world can help me... find a house... get a job... anything ... I am ready. Working from home would be the most amazing thing I could ask for for right now, b/c lillians appointments are crazy! So PLEASE HELP IF YOU CAN!
Thank you all for so many prayers, we have come so far, and are going to keep going, and I know that every single prayer worked. Tons of love for all of my TS and CDH mommies.. now that Im home and back into routine... things should get easier...
Thank you everyone, and also, PAWPAW,
I love you!